DAY 2 - HELPING

Is helping good? I’ve been asking myself this question lately. Does helping, or should helping, make me feel better? Do I help primarily for myself, or for others? And is it even important to think about it this way? Why do I help? Why do I want to help?

When I take a step back and think about it, I realize there’s no simple answer. Helping often feels good—it gives a sense of purpose, of connection, like I’m doing something meaningful. But then I wonder, does that mean I’m helping for me? Does it matter if my reasons are partly selfish as long as someone benefits? Or is true helping about putting others first, without thinking about what I gain?

​I also notice that not every act of helping feels the same. Sometimes, I help out of instinct, without questioning it. Other times, I feel torn—do I have the time, the energy, the right intentions? And when I do help, I find myself reflecting afterward. Did it really make a difference? Was it what the other person needed, or just what I thought they needed?
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Helping is something I want to explore more deeply, to understand what moves me to act and what holds me back. These questions don’t have to be answered all at once, they event don't need to be answered at all but I think they’re worth carrying with me this season, or maybe every season. ​